Cracked

*Trigger Warning* I have to write. I spent multiple evenings this week trying to help a small group talk someone down from ending their life. I’ve been through this on multiple scales before—in a way with my dad, where it ended more negatively than I imagined it would and I didn’t fully realize that dyingContinue reading “Cracked”

What to do With Extra Chances

I am on the struggle bus this week. Stuck in the “it could have been me so what am I doing with this chance at life” stuff. Not exactly sure if that constitutes survivors guilt or something else. Something different. Maybe not as painful as “it should have been me” but still meaningful and difficultContinue reading “What to do With Extra Chances”

Two Out of Three

I just realized I never wrote about my tattoo! Last year I wrote my three post-retirement goals in my post Tattoos, Baldness, and PJ Pants: shave my head, get a tattoo, and walk around Walmart in PJ pants. Amazingly, I’ve knocked out the first two but still have yet to walk around Walmart in PJs—scaryContinue reading “Two Out of Three”

Brain Tornado

If anyone is curious what it looks like inside of the brain of someone who has PTSD/CPTSD caused by someone they love, here ya go… But with a bunch of fun, conflicting phrases like “love you” “hate you” “miss you” “fuck you” constantly wrestling with each other when you think about that person. Which wouldContinue reading “Brain Tornado”

I Actually Like a Cat

I’ve never been an animal person. And REALLY never been a cat person. But we got ourselves a puppy, and a kitten, and some backyard chicken friends and I can’t imagine living here without them. Our cat, Brownie, is the coolest cat I’ve ever met. The kids put him on leashes, dress him, wrap himContinue reading “I Actually Like a Cat”

Parent Pleasures-Cartoons

I’ve always loved animated movies and shows. Disney has my attention as much now as when I was a kid. I’ll never forget dragging my husband to an animated movie (not Disney, pretty sure it was Despicable Me) when I was already a commissioned officer in the Marine Corps. I loved it. He loved. Booyah!Continue reading “Parent Pleasures-Cartoons”

Week 1 in the Books

I can’t fully describe how awesome this past week has been. Aside from a few (thankfully small) panic attacks and the normal anxiety, my first week at Cornell was pretty stellar. I’ve really enjoyed meeting the faculty and my classmates. The beauty of the campus and knowing the sheer volume of world-class research/development that goesContinue reading “Week 1 in the Books”

Day One in the Ivy League

Today was my official first day as a Cornell student! Going to an Ivy League university for graduate school as a 33 year old is considerably different than my venture to the tiny Christian Brothers University for undergrad as a measly 16 year old. Dog actually ate my shoes for the day so had toContinue reading “Day One in the Ivy League”